So I was probably like the worst blogger ever last week. I mean, I totally dropped a bomb on y’all with my giant confession, and then I kinda just crawled back under a rock for a week and read your comments in the company of earthworms and creepy crawlers. And let’s not forget roly polys. I’m not gonna make that same mistake twice.
It took a lot for me to click that “post” button last week. But I was psyched up, felt it was the right thing, and I just DID it. I do not regret that decision– not even for a second.
We’re at two weeks now and I am still so happy I made this decision to go clean, and come clean with all of you. Only good things are coming out of it. So much support, such rallying, and then all of you who have shared your stories with me.
Thank you. It’s been amazing.
But I wasn’t prepared for the draining affect sharing such a secret would have upon me. It was such a big piece of me, you see. A piece that I’ve never wanted to be visible to anyone else. And as liberating as it was to release it to the world wide web, it also proved quite exhausting.
Sort of like letting everybody see what your flesh is really doing underneath the Spanx. Even WE don’t get to see all our fat and extra lumps smooched into sausage casing. We just get to see the smoothing effect, and bear the discomfort with quiet dignity.
Imagine having all the world see inside.
And then…well, the last few days have been rough. I was very sick, I guess from the withdrawals, and it made it difficult to want to say anything to anyone, let alone the internet.
I feel better today, so today I am blogging. Trying to tap back into this crazy, fast, authentic conversation that I myself started with all of you. Please don’t think I wasn’t around. I was listening. Absorbing. Soaking in all the encouraging words that flooded my inbox and newsfeed.
I’m ready to be back in the blogging game–especially since this week I get to finally share the before pictures of my great, big room makeover project!
I have other things to share, too. I’m even gonna try and make you laugh. Just not today. So can you hang with me?